fredag 16 mars 2012

Casablanca - "Love and Desperation" - Music video

Check out their brand new video!

The release of Casablanca - Apocalyptic Youth

I am supposed to write my two last assignments for school today. But I am so excited about tomorrow that I can't concentrate! Right now I am just sitting here waiting for the postman so that I can get my Casablanca CD which I pre-ordered a million years ago. I already have most of the songs in form of an EP but there are some tracks that are yet to be discovered! Tomorrow we are going to celebrate the release of the CD which is what I am looking forward to. Even though I'm not exactly apart of the band, lol. I still feel like I have worked so hard to promote all of the gigs, the release of the EP and now the CD. It's well worth to celebrate all of the good reviews it has gotten. I'll take the train to Stockholm and meet up with Alexandra who I met last Friday at Ryan's Gibson clinic. After having a drink (or two...) we'll meet up with Anna. Then it's party, party, party with the band and all of our wonderful friends.

For those of you who also wants to celebrate the release of the CD can do so by seeing the band perform two short acoustic gigs during the day. The first one is at Hot Records in Solna at 11.30 a.m. and the other one at Bengans in Stockholm at 2.30 p.m. Of course there will be signing sessions included!

 Me, Anna, Ryan, Alexandra and Anton at the Gibson clinic last Friday

tisdag 13 mars 2012

Tulips on the kitchen table

This day has barely started and I feel like I have gotten SO much done already! Considering I haven't slept at all and kind of feel like I'm in a zombie mode, it was amazing that I managed to get up at 6 o clock and drive to the pre-school. We have an assignment coming up in school where I have to interview one of the pre-school teachers. She gave me some really good answers to my questions so I've got plenty of material! Plus it was really nice seeing the kids again. That is always the best part about going there. And I just blend in like normal, the kids immediately see me as the grown up who is in charge. I didn't stay longer than for half an hour though, because they were getting ready to go outside.
Despite being exhausted I actually made a quick decision to park my car next to an old forrest that I have a lot of memories from. I don't know how many times I ran around in there as a kid. I had my camera with me so I walked around taking photos. I can't believe how peaceful it was. That is the only thing I don't like about living in the city, because there is no way that you can find a peaceful place like that there. A place where you can stand in silence, just listening to four different kinds of birds singing, leaves blowing, trees squeeking, twigs breaking... I felt like I was on a 30 minute long vacation. Came home as a brand new me! 






måndag 12 mars 2012

Casablanca signing and gigs

On Saturday the 17th Casablanca will do two short acoustic gigs plus signing sessions, first at Hot Records in Solna at 11.30 a.m. and then at Bengans in Stockholm at 1.30 p.m. See you there!


Photo: JenHell

söndag 11 mars 2012

Unshaved armpits in Melodifestivalen

Last night during Melodifestivalen (Sweden's Eurovision Song Contest), I saw an unfortunate pattern of nasty comments being written on Facebook. I am sad to say that some of those things were written by my very own friends. The comments were about this woman in the picture, who for a moment was on live TV in front of millions of people. I got so terribly angry when I saw my own friends wrting shit about this girl! It's so disgraceful and terribly embarrassing to mock someone who is being completely natural. Is our society THAT shallow and superficial, that this woman deserves to be bullied online? Can you imagine how she felt waking up today? This is not about having 'the right to an opinion'. This is about a young, brave woman who dared to show her true self with no shame, and then she was punished for it. And people are so used to having the right to comment on each other's bodies, so no one thinks about what they're really doing to her! This girl did not follow the strict norm or society's ideal and because of that she lost society's respect. Does that make sense?

I've had enough! I am so damn tired of this idiotic ideal of what beauty is and of people pointing out each others flaws. Look at the original picture instead and see how wonderfully happy this girl is ♥ See how much joy she experienced that night when she perhaps saw her biggest idol perform. She probably danced and created beautiful memories with her friends or her family. See how damn beautiful this picture really is, without focusing on the superficial.


You get no love

Cold-hearted. Some of you have never seen that side of me and some of you have seen way too much of it.
Some things that make others cry doesn't make me cry.  I can be quite harsh about some things. I can be very direct and that probably makes some people surprised, which is why they often look at me like I am made of stone or something.

I am self destructive. I have fought long and hard to make up a system for what I should do when those negative thoughts pop up. It happens from time to time and I am quite good at stop thinking about em. I put up a wall, that I wasn't able to put up before when I was depressed. It's very logical. Of course those feelings will get to you if you aren't able to block em! But here is the thing. When you learn how to block it, you can block other things as well. I guess people look at me as a bit different sometimes since I don't have a problem with shutting some people out of my life. I am not a mean or an evil person for acting this way. It's just self protection. And I understand that from an outsider's point of view it may look selfish, but I do what I have to do....to survive. Even though I don't classify myself as evil, I guess I'll have to count this as one of my darker sides. Because even the though the end result may be good for me, it may not be the greatest thing for someone else. Sometimes people get hurt from being shut out, which is understandable. But the worst part for me is when my other friends are being effected by it too. When they are put in a position where they feel like they need to choose sides. But we aren't in high school anymore, are we? We are grown ups and I think that a situation like this doesn't have to be blown out of porportion. Let's just agree to not hang out with each other, but still be able to be in the same room!

Here is where that cold-hearted side of me comes in again. Because hanging out in the same room as someone who you aren't friends with anymore, isn't very easy for some people. 5 years ago I would most likely have had a problem with it too, so I can relate. But nowadays I have a tendensy to become very impatient with people who make a big deal out of it. I feel like life is too short to dwell on things and be overly sensitive, just move on and make the most of it. I won't change my mind. Those people who are out of my life really ARE out of my life. And for good reasons! They brought negative energy that I had to deal with. My heart and my head got so tired of it. And I refuse to look back on my life and see one big head ache. I want to see fun, laughter and wonderful memories with people that are positive.
I'm not impossible. There are plenty of things that still makes me cry. But I don't cry when I cut someone out of my life because they just aren't worth it. If they have gone that far, so that I feel like they need to be cut out. Then I really don't care about them anymore.

So maybe I'm not cold-hearted after all. 
Maybe I'm just smart enough to be a bit selfish sometimes. 
Because I think we all need that.


torsdag 8 mars 2012

My thoughts on Kony and Invisible Children

Ever since I woke up today, I have been caught up in a debate with one person after another. It has been incredibly important debates about both this and that. But the most important one has been about Joseph Kony. I am sure you have heard his name by now.
 
To begin with I'd just like to say that I am being critical about this. Believe me, I really am. But it's really hard to stand by something when you hear different things from people who ALL claim that they are right. That they KNOW what is going on down there in Africa and within the organization Invisible Children. But let me tell you this much.
Neither one of us knows.

That is why these debates are so important. So that we can share all of the rumors, discuss them and come to a conclusion about what we as individuals think is true. It's not easy going against your own friends in a debate, but hopefully everyone is able to see it from a professional point of view and not a personal one. As an animal rights activist and a lacto-ovo vegetarian I have had plenty of debates with my friends over the years. But even though I have had lots of training in this area, I still feel insecure sometimes and wish that I had read more about the topic before taking sides. But here is the beauty of debates. You can always switch sides! You're not a hypocrite for doing so. You've just educated yourself and realized that you can't stand by your own viewpoint anymore. To quote myself in the introduction box; "I love a good debate but I will never stick to a viewpoint just because it’s mine."

What is so hard about this particular debate is that there are so many strong opinions and rumors flying around that I hardly think anyone knows the truth anymore. Invisble Children have a page on their site where they give replies to all of these rumors but how am I supposed to know that they are telling the truth? It’s the same thing with people who are claiming that Invisible Children are using their money to provide Uganda soldiers with weapons and that Kony has already been captured. Who started these rumors and are they really true? It's very rare that I come across a situation as complicated as this one. Wouldn't it be wonderful if it was clear as daylight what was right and wrong? But it's not black or white. It's gray. It's fuzzy. This puts all of us in a position where we have to look at the big picture.

Do I care that 60-70% of my donated money goes to the three owners of Invisible Children's organization? No I don't because they are travelling back and forth to Africa and therefore need all the money they can get to provide for themselves and to do marketing. To not give money to an organization just because they need money to provide for themselves is an excuse that won't ever work. All organizations have this system. Invisible Children's money mostly goes to "awareness" which is the main purpose. They have made that very clear. They want to make Kony famous. Not to punish him but to show people all around the world that they have had enough of people like him. It doesn't matter that he stopped being an asshole 5 years ago. He is still guilty of those crimes and those people's lives being ruined.

Don't be fake though and only spread the word with the "KONY 2012" video. Don't let that be the first and the last thing that you do if you REALLY want to help this organization. Get active. Take part of the awareness campaign that is going down all over the world on April the 20th. Donate money by buying T-shirts, posters and other kinds of merchandise in their shop! That is the easiest way you can help. The ones who are really working the hardest are Jason, Laren, Bobby and their crew. They are the ones who are OUT THERE, doing the dirty work that everyone else is "too good" for. That is the raw truth. So if the money I just donated by buying an "Action kit" turns out to be a complete waste and that it was only used to make matters worse, then so be it. I am on the other side of the planet and there is just so much I can do to get the information I need to decide if I should take action against this or not. We can't always make the right decisions. But we, who are lucky enough to live in countries where we can educate ourselves without the help from schools, should embrace that and do so! We should all understand how valuable that is and what a beautiful thing that is. Because it can be taken away from us. Just like that opportunity has been taken away from the people in Africa.

At the end of it all, why did I decide to support this organization right NOW? (Maybe not in the future, who knows). Well, because this is about children. And when children are being hurt in this horrific way I personally think that you have the right to choose one side. Then you have the right to act. I have read the pros and cons and I feel okay about my decision. And if things still look okay in the upcoming month, I will be out on the streets on the 20th of April with thousands of other people, standing for what we believe in. 

Where you live 
shouldn't determine 
whether you live...