Once upon a time...

...there was a young girl named Caroline who went to France and became the happiest person alive!

Part 1

I went to Stockholm on friday night and met up with Anna and Charlotte. It was the first time I met Charlotte and I think she is super sweet! Anna, who lives in Stockholm, has cats and I'm allergic so I got to sleep at her friends place for a few hours before we had to take the bus to the centralstation. In the middle of the night all three of us walked to the bus station. But the bus didn't come! It was freezing cold and we were starting to plan to call a taxi when it arrived half an hour too late. The flight bus and plane ride went fine even though I didn't get much sleep. The sun was shining when we got to Paris and it looked like fall there. Not at all like winter. After going on yet another bus and then on the subway, we finally arrived at the hotel where we checked in. 

We had planned on seeing the Eiffeltower that day but we felt like we didn't have time for that all of a sudden. We thought we would arrive before lunch and not after. Swan had written to us on facebook saying that he'd love to meet us the day before the gig, so we knew that he would contact us during the day but we didn't know what time. And of course we didn't want to be on the other side of the city when he called :P

So we just went out for lunch instead (the best pasta and chocolate mousse ever!). And when we were at the hotel we got some sleep and took our time with showering and getting ready to go out during the evening. We didn't have any special plans yet. But then suddenly Charlotte's phone rang and it was Swan! He said that he and Max were going to a bar tonight but couldn't stay longer than til 6 or 7 pm. And the time was like 5 when he called so we totally panicked and were suddenly ready in just 10 minutes :P haha

We managed to find the bar after going on the subway but when we got there it was closed, wouldn't open until in 10 minutes. So we just waited outside and called Swan to see where they were and they were almost there. We were already inside when they got there. And they brought along their friend, a girl named Udo (spelling?). Really sweet girl!

The guys were so nice and knew the place well. So we ordered cocktails, talked and laughed and had a good time. Max had to help Charlotte with some french sentence that she thought meant "can I say hello by kissing your cheeks?". And he explained that that was a really old way of saying that in. When you say it nowadays it means "Can I fuck you?" haha!

There was a guy who was there with his friends, having a bachelor party. We started talking about hen parties (brittish bachelorette parties). And somehow I ended up doing the chicken dance. I'm not going to go into any details but at least I was told I did a sexy chicken dance, so it can't have been that bad. (Jeez, that vodka went straight to my head :P) 

The guys stayed longer than they had planned but finally had to go. But after they left I got really sick. I was sitting with all of my clothes on... jacket...scarf... gloves...hat... and was still shaking like a leaf because I was freezing so much. I felt like I had a fever and my throat hurt so bad. I was just weak. But we didn't leave until 2 hours later. I felt miserable sitting in a corner while Anna and Charlotte hung out with two Swiss girls (Kris and Desriée) that we met who were also going to the gig. They were really cool both of them, I just wasn't up for being social that night for obvious reasons. Of course I couldn't go back to the hotel on my own. First of all I wouldn't be able to find it and second of all it was night time and Paris isn't a particulary safe place to walk around in by yourself. Finally the girls dropped me off at the hotel and it was so fucking good laying in bed. The others went out to eat while I slept like a baby.

AAAAHH can't believe I'm going to Paris!!

I feel so much better and I can't believe I am going to Paris tonight!!
A bit tired from yesterday when I first had a whole day at preschool and then babysat the girls from late afternoon until 00:30. But it was fun of course :) Now I have been packing all day. Starting to get a bit nervous. Don't like flying during the winter. I'm fine with it in the summer. But I have seen way too many documentaries about flightaccidents that can happen because of frost and snow. But it's actually been raining today so the snow is melting. Hoping it'll stay the same tomorrow morning when we take off.

I would like to write a longer post about the band PeepShow who just released their first music video. But since I don't have time to write about this great band now, I'll just show you the video and we'll talk about it later ;) haha. Wow, can't believe I am really doing this. Going to Paris for the weekend. I am trying to not get my hopes up but I just have a feeling that it'll be damn sweet. We all have that feeling. Now take a listen...

Ms Hill, you've got the power to uplift a hill

BLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA......

That's how I feel. I am looking forward to Paris but I can't believe it's actually going to happen. Right now I am too focused on preschool and to get through the rest of the days without worrying about my friends. I just feel like I have been a bad friend lately, don't know what I am doing wrong though. As a result, it's hard to fix the problem. If there is one. It's those little comments I get from time to time. Or the unreplied messages... in other words, no comments at all. Whatever my opinon is, it feels wrong. Even though I've had it for quite some time now. I don't know what to do... every day when I come home from preschool I just want the afternoon and evening to go faster so that I can start all over again. At least I'll babysit the girls tomorrow evening. That'll take my mind off things.
I hate taking my mind off things though. Really hate it. When there is a problem I want to fix it immediately. I just don't know where to start now. So all I do is to walk around with this gut feeling that something isn't right.

The only thing that can make me relax right now is Lauryn Hill's voice and inner strength

This Queen of soul is coming to Sweden in January and I so wish that I could see her

Talib Kweli made a brilliant tribute song to her several years ago

What are you really afraid of?

No one is afraid of heights, they are afraid of falling.
No one is afraid to play, they are afraid of losing.
No one is afraid of the dark, they are afraid of what's in it.
No one is afraid to say I love you, they are afraid of the answer.

We only want to be ourselves

I am going to take the time to write a post about Black Veil Brides sometime. But there is just so much to say that I really need the energy for it. Until then I want to write about my favourite of their songs! It's one of their biggest hits and I totally understand why.

The lyrics are interesting though because they seem easy and predictable, but they actually have a background story.
"Fallen Angels" actually comes from the biblical story of the fallen angels. I personally don't know enough about the Bible myself to talk about it. But Andy Biersack, the singer in the band, is very interested in people's beliefs even though he prefers to believe in himself instead of a religion. He explained in an interview that when the holy war happened in heaven there were seven fallen angels who were cast down to earth. These angels fornicated with human women and created the nephilim, or the so called in-betweens. Andy and the rest of the band members interpreted these as the ultimate outcasts or the ultimate weirdos. Just like Black Veil Brides and other rock n´ rollas are seen as today. But a lot of us try to rebel against that. That is why most rock bands sing about being rebels and starting riots. It's not about beating people up for no reason. It's about the psychological riots. To challenge people's prejudice thoughts and to make them understand that we only want to be ourselves. Just like we want everyone else to be themselves too. We want to live in a world where that is okay.

"Kids that listens to rock n´ roll music or dresses in a certain way, they aren't bad people. They just enjoy a certain thing. And they are sort of alienated from a lot of situations in life. That is not neccessarely the case for us. It's more like a complete anthem to that."

When you're gone I'll still be Bloody Mary

I haven't been blogging much lately, simply because there hasn't been much to say. I've been busy all week with being at the preschool (school practice) and will be there for another two weeks. It feels so good seeing the kids again. Not to mention the lovely new teachers who I get to know more and more each day. I feel like we would make a great team if I worked there for real :)

But I thought I'd stop by here and show you guys a cool video that I found yesterday! I was watching Lady Gaga's new video for "Marry the night" when I saw this in the suggestions section. It's an amature video made by a girl as a graduation project. She created a story for Lady Gaga's song "Bloody Mary" and even though she is copying the artist a bit, she has still managed to do a very original video. I have watched it several times by now and really like it!

привет - Google translate is today's helper

Helloooooo Russia! :D